Peaceful Morning

Surprisingly Slept at 11 last night.
So, Woke up too early in morning.
After such a long time saw the rising sun.
She must be still in her dreams.
So much of work to do..
All anxieties and fears drowned in the sunshine (or something like that.. its Mumbai Sept)
and I am feeling Happy & hopeful for the day to come.
Why dont every morning is just like this one.
Well time to don jogging shoes.
G000d Morning life..

Now & Then

THEN

Once I was a kid. My brother was a smaller kid and my sister the smallest one. We use to live in a rented apartment with my folks. We all used to love pets a lot. I used to bait street puppies (Dogs were bit scary) & lure them into my small lawn. We use to give them Roti and milk. But the stupid puppy always wanted to go out of the phatak which we try hard to block by bricks, chappals and what ever we could lay our hands on.

My kiddo sis used to steal kittens from mom cat, one in each hand, holding carefully by their necks. I can still recall those memories. Still so fresh. :) Dad once brought a small tortise, so innocuous, so shy, so cute simply amazing. That lazy fellow used to roam around our little house eating tomotoes.

We use to catch fireflies. blackouts were very common those days generally in summers. We used to put them in SHIP match box with carefully prepared cozy bed of leaves. Rose leaves.
My brother were butterfly champ. use to get hold of them with naked hands. I remember we organised a funeral of one dead butterfly. we were so sad. :(

Out then life was cool, we were happy. and yaa how can I forget our 3 rose plants. It used to bloom and the count of pink roses went up till 75 some times. I used to get up early in feb mornings to see the dew drops in roses. My happiness grew as the number of roses in my garden increased.

NOW

Now, well now I am not that happy. At times my happiness comes from superficial reasons, worldy things makes me happy. I have not seen a firefly from past 7 years. For me butterfly comes in just one colour. Yellow. Ugly Yellow. Well you must be guessing what came in my mind which compelled me to write this boring monolouge.

Well I saw this little black puppy at my hostel room doorstep the other day. He was looking with eyes full of pain n hope. but I got no sympathy for him. I just shrieked at his sight & wanted him to go away worried that he might pee on my reebok lying outside.
and then I got this moment of silence, and i was wondering why I am not so happy these days. well there are many reasons. Some cause of my own carelessness and fault, some cause of expectations from others. Others are my so called friends. :)

May be I am sad cause I came so far away from my siblings, my loved ones and my place. but all this race for better job and position won't let me live there with them. I dont know when I will come to peace with my situation. Well i dont know how to end these random musings of my brain. Meanwhile that black little puppy is still waiting outside my tightly closed door.

BulBul

Father was vying to have a cigarette after his dinner. "Papa!! Can I come with you? I want to have chocolate Asks bulbul shyly in her sweet sonorous voice.

Father squirms and says "No chocolates for you, chocolate is bad for health, thinking
Whether to have a pataka beedi or filter- less cigarette for smoking? His 12th sutta since morning.

But mommy promised me. I have done all my "home-work" including jhadoo poncha and cleaning utensils. After all she was the lady of the house as mommy was suffering from poverty and its relatives.

theek hain chal..

Bulbul cheers up. So happy that she run far away, here and there, comes back to Father to show him her joy wrapped in a chocolate. Father is busy lighting his Beedi and the driver his 555, suddenly applies break.

Bulbul is lying on the road, screaming in pain.
Driver comes out of his sedan and looks apologetically trying to set a price for the bulbul's pain.

Yeh lo 2000 rupaiyya.. jaldi se isse kisi hospital le jaao. Father is too shocked, but comes to his senses as 2000 is mentioned.

Saab 2000 main kyaa hoga? I will go to police station? You are drunk. This won’t settle in 2000. kam se kam 10000 chahiye.

But I don’t have 10000 right now. Take care of her she is bleeding.

Bulbul is looking at Father with pleading eyes.

Saab samne ATM hain. I am going to police station.

Ok wait...

After 9 minutes.

Yeh lo… keep this 10000 also, but don’t tell this to anyone and take care of that girl.
Saab speeds away again, in search of another 12k innocent victim.

Father looks at Bulbul for the first time after getting his compensation. But where is she?

Bulbul flies away with her piece of joy still in her hand.

His Magic.. :-)

Its one of the most beautiful and contagious smile I have ever seen. Just a look at this face and you forget all your worries. The fog of uncertainity dissolves and all you see is sunshine, pure happiness, pure bliss.
I met sri sri ravishankar at the ashram near kanakpura. The art of living center. I was too curios to meet him, cause everytime I see him on tv or newspaper he reminded me of a very young friend of mine. So, I bunked my office n ride almost 27 km to see him performing a special pooja at his ashram.
One look on to his face and I was bowled over. He has this charisma which can attract you like a powerful magnet. He was laughing like a kid. I was spellbound, not even able to react or speak anything. when I regain my consiousness I was too happy, that too without a reason. n then I thought why do I need a reason to be happy. why can't I keep smiling like HIM.

One smile
enough to blow away years of misery
One smile
and I melt at your feet
One smile
and my heart bursts with fullness
One smile
and I feel so near to you
One smile
and all I can do is thank you
One smile
and I know I am taken care of
One smile...

FAITH .. believe in it

I want to write about faith
about the way the moon rises
Over cold snow, night after night.

faithful even as it fades from fulness
slowly becoming that last curving and impossible
silver of light before the final darkness
but I have no faith myself
I refuse to give it the smallest entry.

Let this then, my small poem
like a new moon, slender and barely open,
be the first prayer that opens me to faith.

--David Whyte--

Artificial Smiles??

Is that the true picture?? Well seems like every body is happy, but are they really? All out there are pareshan. Just smiling for the hack of it. Deep down feeling sad, angry on somebody or other. Thinking abt why the other person behaved like that, how dare he said to me like that?

Well am attending a very kewl session now a days. It has given me a hell lot of insight about myself and sure a lot about others.

Well in this selfish world clashes do happen. Its a Dog eat dog world. But most of the time when this happens we took these kinda things to our heart. We keep carrying that emotional baggage, rest of our lives, till we burst.. KA-BOOM!!!

Common.. shed the baggage.. Forgive him/her ... when U forgive somebody, actually u help Urself. what u do is u ease ur own pain. U stop thinking about it from that moment onwards, and can live more balanced life. It helps, really .. think abt this.


If u r aiming for something as beautiful and essential as happiness than forget what that damn person behaved like or said to U. He is living his own life without, giving a damn about u. U also do the same. Well if something of this kind happens to me, I just shrug it of.. take a deep breadth n tell myself .. I AM NOT GONNA SACRIFICE MY PEACE OF MIND FOR THAT PIECE OF SHIT. Just came across this quote the other day. Sooo true.

" RESENTMENT is kind of POISON, Which U take and wait for OTHER person to DIE "

So Give it a thought and live a happy and peaceful life. GOD BLESS !!!

 

Cause I LOVE U..

Some Tips for people who r not happy in abt there lives..

1. Stop eating junk food. chuck all your damn Choclates, pastries, Maggi, picnic, potato chips, chats, samosas and other fried stuff. U can have them once in a while. N don't give urself an excuse that u ate them because u were hungry.

2. Stick to fruits ,juices and green vegetable and salads. Includes apple, bananas, orange, musk melon grapes n not MANGO. When u go to restaurent eat some green stuff instead of chinese food.These all will satiate ur hunger and will make u more fresh n energetic.

3. STOP devouring cold drinks every now n then. They r filled with calories n u should try to lower the intake. U can have diet coke.

4. Control ur gussa. U r wasting ur energy on thinks that r not in your control. May it be the auto driver or bus coming late or ur foolish flatmate. Try to be calm and happy from inside. Always look for good side of things. and most imp SMILE. It looks good on you. sacchi!!

5. TAKE out time for yourself. Keep doing Yoga and aerobics. N don't do only because somebody is telling to do it. Enjoy the time u give to urself. baaki jindagi ki bhaag daud toh chalti rehti hain.
6. Don't Waste your time. Use it in good books.. good music.. read Economic times. develop new hobbies.. try to understand different peoples phychology n way of life.. n extract the best out of it.

7. Keep Faith in the God above. N just wait for the appropriate time. U will get everything u want including...

8. Be optimistic. Its will really help you in every facet of your life n that too without a cost.

9. Respect other's time also. Try to be punctual.. I know its impossible for u but atleast TRY. :-) Just think that there is somebody else waiting just for You. N u also would hate if u r in his/her place.

10. Be Prudent. Don't sqander your hard earned money like fools (Which u do many a times). Its very imp that we learn the value of money. n never be shy or careless in demanding ur OWN money back. Otherwise people will think that u r a fool n will start cheating u every now n then. Moreover u don't have to remember ki kisske kitna paisa lena hain. peace of mind u know.

11. Be a little more concious about your Posture. The way u stand n sit will definately create a stoop in ur back. Hamesha Tan ke rehne ka. :-)

12. Never feel alone. SOMEBODY IS ALWAYS THERE FOR U. No matter how physically far we are.

13. Do value ur time. Its the most Important assent u have. If u learn how to manage time efficiently, u can do almost everything u wanna do.

14. Exercise everyday. It makes u feel light. It makes u feel good abt urself. That creates an optimistic energy and u starting loving urself n ur life.

DO ATLEAST 4 OUT OF THE ABOVE TIPS N ENJOY THE CHANGE IN QUALITY OF UR LIFE.